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Two engagement announcements this week…

(Trying to think if I know anyone else who is dating so I can be on the lookout for the next one, LOL)

When is it time to just say fuck it and give up?

Do I really have so little to offer in a relationship that all that one can see are my flaws?

I fully admit it, I am totally pissed. And yes, it’s over something stupid.

We had talked about going to the Herndon festival today. I *love* that kind of stuff. So I am up, showered, and trying to drag his butt out of bed to no avail.

So I finally ask if he really wants to go or not. Well, it would seem that he has things he needs to do today and he’s worried that if we go, he won’t get around to those things.

Well, WTF did he ever even agree to going? Why didn’t he mention this “other stuff” that he has to do BEFORE TODAY? Then I wouldn’t have even gotten all psyched up about going.

Yes, I know - I can go alone. But I wanted to do this TOGETHER, and I thought it would be FUN for my last day off.

Well, I needed to go the grocery store and do laundry anyway.

For a couple of reasons.

First, I am a lazy slob, so it pretty much goes against my entire genetic makeup.

Second, after three freaking years, I am STILL finding crap that belonged to my ex in the house. Drives me nuts.

Not happy with what they’ve got, looking for something that doesn’t exist.

I seriously wonder if I will ever find someone that can just take me AS I AM.

My week was long and tiring. Totally got in the zone and kicked ass yesterday, but still tiring

Tim’s was, too - work a 36 hour day and you’d kinda be tired, too.

So, you wouldn’t think that going out would be at the top of the list of things to do by the time quittin’ time came around on Friday night. Me neither. :)

So, I get an IM that he has to go over to Tysons II after work, how about meeting up for dinner and maybe catching a movie? Hey, I’m game, and I tell my boss that at some point my phone will be ringing and that it will be my date for the night and I wil HAVE TO GO. Boss says it sounds like an excellent idea to him.

Never did make the movies, but had a nice time anyway. Wandered around the mall waiting while for a table at Maggianos. FAO Schwarz was having a sale, so I am started on my Toys for Tots shopping for Christmas!!

I am also getting my red mixing bowls!! They are like these, but fire engine red:

They came out around V-day, but sold out immediately. I OH SO WANTED THEM. But, no luck. Tim stopped over by W-S while in the mall, picked up a catalog and saw they had them in the other colors. Got someone to call and find out if they had any in red. YES - sort of. Backordered, but ON ORDER!

When I got there, he showed me the catalog w/ the blue ones… “Well, yeah, those are nice.” Then the orange ones… “Very cute, but I just REALLY liked those red ones.” At which point he handed me the order confirmation number. WOOT!

Nice dinner, nice shopping, good unwinding time. Sets the tone for a good chill out weekend.

Damn near an entire bottle of Rosemount Estate Shiraz later, a good talk with a friend and some other feedback, I really don’t give a rat’s ass about the ex and his perky wife and their perfect house…

that they’ll never have paid off

that will enable their kids to really get to know their day care provider

that will become their albatross over time

schadenfreude, I know….but it works.

Hell of a weekend for Tim to be out of town…

I am really amazing and incredibly disappointed in myself with how much this whole ex getting married thing is bothering me.

Lord knows it’s not like I want him back in my life.