So I’ve gotten my day off to a rotten start by being a snippy nasty bitch. There’s no good reason for it, except for the fact that I was mad at myself for miscommunicating something, and being an idiot, I just lashed out.
My life has gotten to the point where it’s revolving around work and sleep. I can’t remember the last time I made something real for dinner. I’m trying to be supportive of others, but quickly running out of steam, and having nothing left for myself.
My neck is in knots, and my knee and ankle are both hurting for who knows what reason. I’ve got too much stress and no outlet for it.
My job is horrid, and I’m trying to do something about it, and getting jerked around for my efforts. And as much as I need to get out of here, starting over somewhere else is just as scary. But at the same time, I am tired of having to have my life revolve around “what is the schedule for closing the books”. Still blocking off the last week of October/first week of Novenmber.
I’m angry that my ex was able to just walk away with zero consequences and I am *still* dealing with crap from that.
I cancelled my 401K last night, and I’m stopping my Roth contributions for the time being. The tax break is nice, but it’s not helping my regular savings or my debt. Hell, I didn’t want to retire anyway.
I need to be able to step back and just regroup. I’m rapidly turning into a high strung undateable bitch, and I don’t want to be that person.
